Sunday, June 22, 2008

Past Haunts…… Its Irksome Feeling……

I have learned to live in present and to enjoy every bit of life, every minute, every hour, every day…. enjoy and live to the fullest. ….also learned to agree that life is too short to be nostalgic.

Also learned to develop a personal value system that is based on the belief system of being original… being true to self and to others no matter what society thinks. Listen to inner voice and act upon inner vibes.

At times one may feels as if one is being detached from reality, being individualistic and living in a shell of self denial and social isolation….but to me happiness lies in being true to self and listening to inner voice.

At times I struggle with relationship, materialism and past vague vibes leading to emotional agony.

I have also learned that every relationship is like a journey, one meets other… on the way, talk, share and part away when destination arrives. Move on with another journey and meet others, keeps going…..

But at times one feels that it’s the journey of lifetime ……leading to same destination and one continue with other as partner…….bitter reality check suggests that it is naivety ….material quest reign superior over emotions, intangibles and care….thoughts change, plan change, worth change…..

We live in a material world, human worth is measured with the length of the car, house and digits on salary slip as well the organization and designation…. how cruel the material world is!!!!!! Believe you me it is a nasty reality check. Hmmm it is called bitter truth known as practical way of living.

Past has made me scared of taking initiative in any future relationship......

At times I think…Hey world please stop, I want to get out… are too material…and I am too humane to live in material milieu.


Anonymous said...

Let me tell you my experience of life. My childhood was horrific, full of cruelty and abuse. I had no self confidence as a teenager and trusted nobody. All I cared about was what people thought of me and it drove me crazy if they didnt all like me. But then I met my husband when I was 19. Over the years with him, I have learned that spending time thinking of the past and feeling sorry for yourself is a waste of today! Instead of regretting not having the family I should of had, I am grateful for the new family I have now. And instead of wishing I had had the same things as my friends when I was a child, I am grateful for what I have now. I am not rich, I do not have a lot of money, I have a small rented council home and my own car. Some people look their nose down at me because I havent bought my own house, dont have the latest and best model car or the expensive labelled clothing, but I have something they dont. I have a wonderful family and love and nothing in the world is more valuable than that. I dont worry about yesterday or tomorrow, I enjoy today. I don't care any more what people think, it is what I think that matters. I am confident and proud of all I have achieved because I have done it in a decent and honest way! I wasted a lot of years fretting about the past, worrying what people think, about what I did or didnt have only to later realise I had wasted many precious years. I will never make that mistake again! The only regret I have in life is that I never knew my real father and that is one thing I would change if I could, but I am not going to lose sleep over it for the rest of my life because that would destroy today!.

Imran Baloch said...

Hey glad to read your reply...i agree...Present is the most previous and one should not worry what happened in past...or how people treated me my love or relationship....

I Like your reply